Thank you for your opinion.
Nice that you have mentioned committed relationship, I would like to have that, but the feeling that overwhelms me is that I am doing 50 things for her in order to get 2 from her. My energy goes too low, and only when I give up, she starts to feel that cold and starts to give something in return. It pisses me off when I want something equal and the other part wants something limitless.
I was watching one YouTube video where the speaker says 'Although sex is a component of skin hunger, it is not about sex entirely.'
Sometimes I feel that I'm attracting girls who still wants to have someone around who will do everything for them as parents once did. That is a lot of energy. Those type of girls are not adults.
Anyways, I'm analizing this 'skin hunger' better and the more I do it the more sex is a separate thing. I was raised by parents who never touched their children, from my father I got a feeling that he never did it cause he had so many accumulated non-toughing energy that it would be easily become sexual, and he couldn't separate that. I got the same feeling in me. In my last relationship I said to my girlfriend that she is my Temple of Touch. But she didnt took that so seriously as I did.
I am not sustaining from committed relationship, no, I just really have a hard time to find a girl who knows her own boundaries and grounded worth. A girl who knows that money is not falling from the sky and who would not jump for another guy as soon she takes everything from one that she is with.