Hello everyone!

My name is Jenna and I am currently a senior in high school.

I was diagnosed with ADD at the beginning of my Sophomore year, though it has been a problem nearly my entire life. It is so severe that I forget things in my normal routine I have done for years and don't even think to do something even if a reminder is staring me in the face. I have forgotten to drink or eat at times and obviously that has brought some terrible consequences. During my freshman year, my mother would yell at me every night because I would always forget to do homework or forget to turn it it. I also have terrible anxiety regarding talking to adults such as teachers, so I would go to extreme measures to avoid talking to teachers. I spiraled down into a pit of lies and almost killed myself just three months into my high school career.

I have gotten much better since then, but I fear that I am falling back into depression. I am once again lying to my parents, avoiding my teachers, and constantly fearing my future. I am an artist, going into costume design, and though I am extremely determined and passionate about my work, I am always scared that I will not do well in the organization of my job and might fail. I am even scared I will never be able to live on my own, and will always need people to make sure I remember to just take care of myself (and as an extremely independent person, that would be hell). I am becoming more and more depressed and antisocial, and I am scared of my own feelings. I need to find some better way to cope with what is going on before I go back to where I was freshman year. I don't want to give up my future, but the thought of possibly not even having one is terrifying.

- Jenna