I have some friends online I can talk to. If tbings are really really bad, I will email my pastor, but would never tell her I'm going to cut or I'm suicidal. Just that I'm really struggling. I can call her if I really need to, but I never do.

It's weird because I used to be able to email or call my ex-T as much as I wanted. She even encouraged it. This one, I can't really because it's against hospital policy. She has said there were a few times she wished I had called in spite of that.