That's weird, you sound a LOT like someone I was quite close to... she has SA, spends a lot of time on a MMORPG, takes time to make her character look nice (which I could never understand), would at times get so angry she would have to stay away from me for a bit. I have a few questions (if you don't mind)... do you have any close friends? Have your friends ever expressed dissatisfaction at your avoidant behavior (which results in you getting quite angry)? Are you conflict avoidant, and feel anger when you feel someone is criticizing you? Do you find it easy to cut people out of your life? Do you wonder whether you know what love is/have the ability to feel love?