Interesting, thank you for sharing. Have you tried taking the quiz posted on this thread (not that you should take the result as a definitive answer, but would be interesting nevertheless)? Are you in therapy at the moment? If so, it might be an idea to share these feelings with your therapist. We all have things we can work on, what's important is that we genuinely want to; and that we are willing to put in the effort. Whether the label matches or not is perhaps not as relevant when you see it from that perspective.