Some of us have gathered. I will be going back soon. I can't believe this. (!!!) I am leaving/sending messages to everybody. I am venting this so much, however I can. I even abused the online messaging system for my primary doctor to vent this. I don't need anything from him. I just need to vent/talk/get this shock out about what happened. He and I talked this morning--my friend and I. He was happy. He had started drinking by then. He tried to hide the can in his jacket. I gave him friendship that he wanted, and needed--I gave him support--He was starting to believe in himself that he could be well again, and healthy, and quit drinking.