People pretend in all kinds of ways MI or not. Sometimes you just have to suck it up and do what needs to be done, I'm not blowing off how your feeling, its just sometimes " fake it til you make it" needs to be done for others and sometimes it will help your own mental state.

I dunno maybe with your current train of thought... Divorcing your husband and him having Miquel . Then why not enjoy what could be the last holiday season together?