I know. It's an obsession. I've kept it in check in reality, but my mind doesn't stop obsessing over him. As far as him not answering, I think he doesn't even see Facebook messages. He's never on there and a mutual friend posted something to him recently that he didn't respond to, either. Maybe he really did fall down a sink hole.

This is the strangest guy and I LOVED IT. He totally fed into the whole thing, too. Toyed with me. Believed his own BS. He is absolutely not a person anyone would want to encourage, and why I feel the way I do is beyond my comprehension. Honestly, there must be some kind of disorder that has perpetuated my 35 year obsession. Seriously folks...

I made sure I deleted his phone number and email so I would never dial out again.