I get that he may be the love of your life, the one that got away ect. But you're both married correct? Would you like a woman to be texting your husband? Have respect for your relationship and their marriage and not expect a happy bday at all. I would try my best to get over it and seek therapy if needed.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 150mgs
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 600mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN