I've posted a few times on another forum. I have been struggling my whole life with depression, episodes of psychosis, anger, mania, etc. I have been on Topamax and Vistaril for a month now. My mood swings are not as rapid as they were but when they hit they are worse than they were before. I've been in a depressive state for over 2 weeks now and I can't get out of it. I still don't sleep at night and I find myself crying my eyes out for no reason at all. I have been on and off of medications since I was 15 and nothing seems to help. I just don't know what to do anymore. I have 2 children, I feel so worthless because I am unable to work, I have to live with family to help me take care of them. And I HATE that. It is all overwhelming and it seems like it is never going to go away. I have been in therapy, seeing psychologists, and a gp about this. They never explain to me what they think is wrong with me, they just shove medication after medication on me. It is irritating me. I am to the point I barely leave my home at all. I just don't know what else to do. Anyone have any advice on how to better cope? Thanks