Hello maddnessreturns: Thanks for sharing this. I've personally never been given a diagnosis, although I've seen quite a few mental health professionals. Sometimes I feel like I missed out on something. At other times I think maybe they've done me a favor. I don't know. I do know that, for me, unravelling that ball of wire that was my childhood is a thing that will never happen. Too much time has passed & it's just too complicated.
I hope that you will be able to learn to give yourself the credit you deserve.