bp I am sure you are wished more good than you can imagine! This is SO scarey... the "c" word... regardless of what we try to tell ourselves, and others... the fear remains. I am so sorry that you are going through this.

As for your not telling family... if you can maintain your normal self (I don't know how you could..) and you really want to not share... then try. But if you pick up a different reaction to what you say and do around them, then they might also know something is awry... it could be a very "healing" time for family if you do find yourself able to share. You shouldn't (and you really don't have to) have to carry this by yourself.

This is one reason I haven't decided to have sucha test... I will also do the camera pill, but the drawback is, yes, if they find polyps they can't remove them right then like they do with the "tube."... and the time inbetween would be devastating to me...

It's a good thing you have done... all this testing. Have you shared with your doctor about not telling anyone else? He may have some good advice for you along those lines...

my thoughts are with you... think good thoughts and make that polyp GO AWAY ! ok? we'll all think that energy for you too! (((((((((((((((((((((((((bp)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))