OP, except for a few minor details, I could've written this post myself. Even the fact that my parents depend on my sister, and I am currently living in a hotel. I am sorry I can't offer you any advice, but I just wanted to tell you that you aren't alone. I too wonder why I can't function like everybody else. I find myself crying alone in the bathroom (hiding from my husband and children) because I just feel like it isn't fair. Why me? What did I do that made me stuck living this life? Everybody says it will get better. Will it?

I'm sorry, I don't want to be a downer on your post. All I can say is to keep hoping. That's what I'm doing. If I hang onto hope then there is always a possibility of me getting better, and for now that's good enough. I'm wishing you the best