Another year is about to end and I feel like I always do this time of year. My birthday is coming up soon and this year I had plans that it would be different. I will be turning twenty-one and yet everything just backfired on me once again. I just figured that it's been five years since my life fell apart the first time and three years since the second time, that maybe with help this year I could be good. I actually felt ready let go of pain this year. But no I end up getting stabbed in the back. I thought I was doing good for this year but then the pain came up as Christmas got brought up and this year I just dont feel like trying to lie to myself and everyone around me. It makes me wonder why I can't just move on from my past and every little betrayal that happens. Like I said another year is coming to an end and I wonder where I truely stand because I don't know anymore.