I'm sorry you are in a hurtful place.

I notice when people around me tell me I should forgive...it really means they are tired of hearing me talk about it. Actually, they lose me when they use the parent statement, "You should forgive.."

I don't feel it's horrible not to forgive. There is one person I have not forgiven. I don't see myself ever forgiving him. I am not opposed to forgiveness if, one day, I magically feel forgiveness toward him...but I doubt that day will ever come.