Hi guys! It's been awhile. I'm doing pretty good! Actually, not suicidal anymore. Woohooo! Since I've been off Cymbalta it's been amazing. I had no idea how bad it was affecting me the past 8 years! BTW, as you know, the Lithium worked for mood but was awful on my body. Then my pdoc put me on Depakote. I literally felt no change and it made me gain weight. So, I'm only on my Lamictal (been on 8 years) and my small dose of Xanax.

So, here is the situation. I feel agitated and angrier than I did before. It's almost like there is live wire under the surface. I could verbally go off on someone if I felt justified (not violent, etc). Also, I'm in so much physical pain. I didn't realize how much the Cymbalta was helping with my bone pain (actually didn't even know I had bone pain!).

So, my pdoc mentioned Neurontin. Anybody familiar with it or been on it? She said it's a seizure medication like Lamictal but they have found it works for mood stabilization, anxiety, and pain management. Sounds awesome, but I can't put on anymore weight. Since I was diagnosed in June, I've put on 20lbs playing around with meds. I was already heavy!!!

Thanks!