I have a play list with songs that I like to listen to when I am feeling super down. Breathe me by Sia and beautiful by Eminem are two on that list. But if I am just feeling super down, I put on my alternative stations on Pandora. I feel like these have so much feeling. And I like stuff that I can relate too. I am much like you in the way that I do not like cheery music when I feel super down.