That's cool. I actually have started listening to old-school soul music lately. Some of that is inspired by gospel for sure. That's more for my normal days though. It's soothing, but today I think would just add to my "blah" feeling.
Incidentally, watching the music video for "Scars" backfired today. If I'd just listened and not watched I would have been fine. But the video shows the lead singer trying to help his girlfriend, who clearly has a drinking problem. She just gets mad, even without hearing her words you can tell she's saying things like "It's not a big deal" and "You just don't understand." He dumps all the alcohol in the house down the drain, and the next morning as she's leaving, she knocks over a candle and burns his house down.
Before having seen the video, I always identified with this song because I do feel like my weakness is caring too much, and that I'm always having to harden my heart and melt it again. But watching the video today makes me think that my boyfriend would identify with the lead singer in the video, because he's always trying to help me with my problems but I don't usually take his advice because I don't think he understands what it's like to have depression and anxiety and OCPD. But looking at it from his perspective, I worry that one day he'll just leave, if he feels he can't get through to me...