Thanks Sunny!

I think what he meant. Now that I've digested our session I'm thinking he meant that I am looking for his approval instead of trusting my own instincts.

I do make a lot of assumptions and make negative interpretations first. It really has me spiraling when I do this.

Oh and my mom told me last night (she's here now) that she is going to lay the ground rules down when we see my T. She doesn't want to talk about my dad or brother, just her and I. She wants to tell him a disturbing dream she had about me telling her my dad was dying of cancer.

I'm thinking to myself, what?? My T will not respond to her ground rules and he shouldn't. I told her to go with the flow and that she had better not be disrespectful to him in anyway.

She said 'oh don't worry, he'll love me'...eeeek. I'm okay though because I'll have T in the room. I'm not afraid of this anymore.