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I thought about it a while, and decided I really did have the right to be angry. So when the manager came, I let fly. It seemed to be both expected and accepted. (I ended up getting an apology and a $250 gift certificate for future repairs.)
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I am so proud of you Sunny!! You stood up for yourself and must have done it genuinely and were rewarded for it. Great going! My Aunt used to say that you can say anything to anyone, it's the way the message is delivered that matters.
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At times, I was kind of impatient with T also. (In fact, maybe I was occasionally obnoxious. Like there was this one time I was explaining my point of view, and he said "good." I said, "Good?! What do you mean, good?!", in this really demanding way.
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This is an interesting exchange. It seems you were hoping he would reframe your thinking but I think what he was saying is that you have a right to feel the way you do. No reframing necessary!
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He says, kind of bewildered but smiling, "yes, I agree with you. I understand." I had been thinking maybe what I was saying was unreasonable, so it helped a lot to hear maybe this wasn't the case.)
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Is it possible that you thought you were being unreasonable? This is a profound moment I believe. I don't know what you said and don't need to. If your T thought you were being unreasonable he would've said 'well, let's think about it this way'...he didn't and I hope you continue to express yourself and be raw!
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In hindsight, I look back and see how several times T really tried to connect and I pushed it away. Interesting. Maybe the times we don't connect are often my fault?.)
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No, that isn't your fault or his. I think it's working now for you both. This type of relationship takes time Sunny and you are going at your own pace. He is respecting your pace too.
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At one point, after my going through a litany of things not going well with the divorce, T says, "what do you want us to do about it?" Us??? Us??? Why is he asking about us? It totally distracts me when he uses that word. There is an "us"?!
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Aw, I'm giggling a bit here. Yes there is an 'us' with you and your T. He's trying to tell you that. It is a therapeutic 'us' but it doesn't matter because it is real nonetheless.
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I think hard. What he and I do together is talk, so he must be asking me if I want "us" to continue talking about this or not. In fact, maybe he is telling me he's had enough and that it isn't productive for "us" to keep talking along these lines.
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Ah yes, don't you just love misinterpretations? I do this all the time. I'm thinking the point of him stressing 'us' is he wanted to pass that message to you. That there is a you and him...
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But then he says this other thing we could do to deal with the situation and I find out he really did mean what he said and wasn't just suggesting our talking was useless. That made me realize how I can sometimes jump to conclusions about his meaning and end up misunderstanding if I don't seek clarification.
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Me too! I'm glad you seeked clarification. I don't always do that and then obsess until the next session. Good for you for realizing you needed to do that.
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I did consider his suggestion for how we can proceed but ended up vetoing it, at least for now. He said if I change my mind, to call him, and he will proceed. This is totally cool as he has never suggested I call him!
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All I can say to this is:
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He said, "yes, you and I are very close and we are very open with each other." Well, it's a good thing I was sitting down, because that statement really hit me hard. Unlike some of the people here on PC--and I greatly admire this about you--I do not talk to my T about our relationship (unless it is through dreamwork). I just accept we are close and connected, but don't talk about it. To hear him acknowledge how great we are together made me feel really, really good. I told him, I wanted that to continue.
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Yes!!!!!!! This was a beautiful exchange. Have I said I love your T yet? My T said something similar not long ago. I wanted to jump up and hug him. I'm glad you told him you want the connection to continue. This is huge Sunny!
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As I was leaving, he told me he is glad to see me like this, so impatient and ready to move on. He says it shows therapy is working. ??? I'm not sure what that means. I hate those on-the-way-out-the-door comments. Then you wonder all week about them. Gottseidank I have an appointment next week--these every other week sessions sometimes just aren't frequent enough. I feel like I have a ton of things to talk about with him next time.
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I know what you mean about those ending comments but that is how we learn. Painful as it is...
I am so happy for you. Sorry it took me a few days to respond.