I for yrs repressed and even managed to convince myself I was singular...Oh Boy! It was agony when it all came crashing down on me. I am now in the in between
... where I am aware that there are others and have some memories of being Co concious w/ at least 1 of them, but I still am the outsider. I am the 1 who is probably most unaware of everything.. I guess?? I still struggle with trying to remember that I am not "the whole or host" but just "part".... I have always been depressed, an isolator, and a loner... learned to accept that I wasn't liked/ wanted even by my own family... but seriously WTF?! THERE'S A PARTY IN MY BRAIN AND I'M NOT INVITED??!!