Thanks. That might work except the things I forget are usually things I didn't know in the first place.
It's just ridiculous. I even did what my boyfriend told me to do today, went outside, trekked through a foot of snow to buy fresh fruit at the gas station, because he says it'll help my back pain and mood, and I should get my blood moving in the morning. I did that so at least he can't call me lazy again. Got home, and I can't even open the stupid pack of fruit! I mean ****ing seriously? They're in this ridiculous packaging that you have to tear a strip off of, I've managed it before, can't open it today. So ridiculous.

Anyway I'm not ignoring all your advice. I'm not smoking in the mornings anymore, but I can't quit cold turkey right now. And I don't think I need to either, I don't have these problems when I only smoke once a day after work.
I just have to keep trying I guess.. I just wish that someone other than you guys understood how hard I'm trying, that I'm not being lazy, my brain isn't working right right now, and there's just too much for me to concentrate on to not make mistakes right now. I'm doing what my boyfriend suggested, I'm taking his advice which he says I should have done sooner and will solve all my problems. I told him it's not going to magically work in a day, he even told me the same thing. But still he rags on me for my mistakes. I'm not asking for a full pardon, but he acts like everything else is fine, like I should be 100% on my game at work, because I'm not going through a hard time or anything.