Quote:
Originally Posted by andeerea
It's never to late to start anything  I have started literally from nothing as in ZERO, no parents here and no family to rely on. You have to remember that you will need to start somewhere. I started out retail, making almost nothing, took a student loan, went to school while working. I finished my BS degree and I had to continue school because I couldn't afford to pay student loan after I graduated so that resulted to going to graduate school - more student loan debt while still working. Then, I saved up some money and started my own side business to help pay for my student loan. I fortunately landed my first IT job, then, got another job at a university for 2nd job - so technically, I have 3 jobs. It is definitely hard and hard work but my weaknesses and lack of having anyone FORCED me to do these things, I think of them as the vitamins that strengthened me from going through anything. Believe, there are days where I feel very exhausted and get sad, but like I said from earlier post, I console and heal myself and perhaps you should try that? Remember, at the end of the day, only you and you can save yourself from all these obstacles. In some ways, I am glad for what my past, the loneliness and lack of being loved and cared for made me into such a strong individual - sure I do get depress at times esp w/ Holidays but I try to look at the good things in my life Remember, its NEVER too late BUT only you can help yourself, take it from me, its hard hard work and there would be times, you'd want to give up but always be positive and look at the blessings you have and keep going no matter what |
I think I'm kind of your opposite. I've always had my great, loving and supportive parents. They even paid my way through college, even when I squandered the opportunity and earned a nearly worthless degree. And now they're continuing to support me, even though I'm an "adult" and they're almost ready to retire, and I should be supporting THEM by now -- the guilt is tremendous. I've always spent the holidays with them, except a few times during college while they still lived overseas. I know I'm really lucky to have them, and do love and appreciate them.
But really, they're all I've got and I CONSTANTLY worry about what will happen when they are no longer here. Just having loving and supportive parents doesn't guarantee a happy life, let me assure you. No one has a perfect situation; you'd trade those troubles for others. Terror of people keeps me almost totally isolated, and terror of being judged makes job interviews a living hell. Depression has sapped away all of my confidence and self-esteem. I know full-well that the obstacles are all in my head, that many of my fears are irrational, but that doesn't help when it comes right down to it.
I wonder sometimes if I might be stronger or at least more capable of coping with day-to-day anxiety and stress if my parents hadn't been quite so protective and supportive. I admit, I was a spoiled kid and I think it made me weak. I know it's a terrible thing to think of but... There it is.