My first T sought supervision when I asked her for one. She later said No because she didn't want "to promote dependency".

Sigh, all I wanted was for her to choose one out of 5 of my favourite marbles to give to me.

I haven't asked current T, because she didn't answer when I asked her for a photo of her. I ended up finding her public instagram for pictures of her.

I think an object would make me feel special, valued and cared for, and maybe my therapists don't want that for me... :/ I would want somethin she thought of and gave to me.

I'm really happy that you asked for and got your object even as your therapist was considering giving you one!