When I was turning 30, I was finally a senior going for my B.A. I was happily married then. It had been 7 years, but we were still waiting to have children.

I didn't have a job, as I was focusing on my education. We lived in a small but cute duplex & we were anxious for me to get a decent job. However, we were in a pickle. A B.A. wasn't enough to get me a job, I needed my Master's degree. I also knew that I didn't have much longer to wait to have children AND I didn't want to work for at least the first couple of years of their lives.

It was a difficult place to be in, emotionally. I graduated in '01, had my first daughter in '02 & my second daughter in '04. I was a stay-at-home mom until my younger daughter was 2 y.o. Complications arose (such is life!) with my second pregnancy & after, so I never have been able to go back for my Master's degree. I've had to change my life in a lot of ways, but I'm still a good mom to my girls ~ I'm doing the best that I can.

Life throws complications into nearly everything, really. It takes some resilience, patience, and devotion to get what you *really want*. Somewhere, along the way, you realize that a lot of other stuff really doesn't matter. Making that discovery & allowing yourself to let go of those expectations is very freeing. It's therapeutic. You'll be okay. You just need to sit down and think about what's really important to you. Then, you can go from there.

(((hugs))) sent your way.