Mookster, if you have a T and she thinks you need in treatment therapy, perhaps you might want to consider her reasons why. Then you can express your reasons why not to go. If you are feeling depressed to do self harm perhaps it would help? I know sometimes we don't want help but sometimes we have to learn how to ask for it. Pray for the wisdom of the right thing to do then go in and ask God to direct you and give you His peace. He will take care of you. You are still here and he is working on your behalf. I believe that with my life for there is no other way to explain why i am still here. You be blessed and please hang in there. What you think as a trap may be a way for betterment for you. peace, tc. and keep posting and let us know how you are doing.