To be honest I don't think this is helping in the least, every ounce of me is in a full blown state of panic... Going in there like this isn't going to help my "case".... It's going to prove hers... Screwing with trust issues, ready to just stop all therapy.. Been awake since 1:15am this morning just shaking... And it's after 6am now.. I've texted her and gotten no response to my question... Which is making me think more and more it's a trap and I don't think I'm going to go...