Oh yeah. My main t doesn't cancel-I've been seeing him for 8 years. And he has only cancelled once in all that time. He will sometimes ask me to reschedule, but is fine with me saying no. I do have a pretty flexible schedule so I can usually accommodate the change he wants to make.

But if any of them did cancel, I would probably melt down, have to take my rescue medication and who knows what else.

The fact is our youngest parts are still living in the days where we were abandoned. I am slowly learning to comfort myself and to sit with the pain, but it has been a very slow process with me and I am still a long way from it being really ok. Interestingly, I have been doing Somatic Experiencing with another t and that seems to have helped with the abandonment when nothing else has been really effective in 8 years of therapy.

Hang in there; glad you see t tomorrow.