I tend to be really solution based, believe it or not, so I'll admit to feeling some awkwardness brushing off very reasonable suggestions but...

I am on the Canadian border - so north is not an option. East of here 20-120 miles is quite literally White Supremacist central. West a hundred miles is pretty much barren or as rural as it is here.

Here's the other thing: My wife and I are surviving on $6000/year while I await SSDI. I spend $1800/year on gas getting to doctors visits averaging four a week for the last three years. Car insurance is $700/year. That leaves us with $3500/year to live on - or about three hundred a month. We live in a barn. Don't ask me how I afford internet because a truthful answer will have to be edited by a mod. The more money one has, the more options; we are extremely limited.

Yes, but not how I've ever heard anyone else describe it. I am extremely competent socially, but I loath it. I'd compare it to someone working graveyard at Walmart stocking shelves. They don't do it because it is fulfilling; they do it because it is what they have to do to survive. I can fit in perfectly at the White House or the crack house - and have. No matter where I go, I am perceived as someone to get to know. But it's an act, albeit a highly polished one.

Well, I did just use 'albeit' in a sentence. But no.

In my opinion, all people are capable of 'good' and 'bad' - though as a Buddhist, the whole discussion of good and bad is a bit of a non sequitur. I am aware of the capabilities of people - but look for the good.

No. My wife, that's it. I am very introverted.

A very difficult question and would require me to intimately know others emotional range - but I don't think so. I am capable of a wide range of emotions, the only noticeable one missing is jealousy; I don't think I've ever felt that one. Generally speaking, I'd say I have the whole Buddhist equanimity thing going - so perhaps serenity instead of jumping up and down in jubilation or throwing things in anger. On the other hand, if I am 'letting go' via a movie or something, I will cry at commercials, Disney movies, Nicholas Sparks movies require two boxes of tissues at minimum.

I was referred by my primary care provider for depression initially. The psychiatrist decided correctly that I was not getting sleep due to chronic pain, and verified by a sleep study showing 0% stage three and REM sleep. He prescribed something to help me sleep and the depression lifted immediately. During that time, there was also high levels of anxiety and audio hallucinations. But again, everything stopped immediately after getting some sleep.

My health insurance doesn't cover doctors from the reservation, and the local one is my wife's tribe which doesn't cover spouses. I would have to pay out of pocket and that is simply impossible.