Hello Crook32: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I recall a time, years ago, when I returned to work following some surgery. I wasn't ready either & it went badly. I ended up resigning voluntarily because I just couldn't keep up. It wasn't the beginning of my downhill slide. That was already well under way. But it certainly gave the can a good additional kick down the road, so to speak. I hope you can find the strength to heal.