I know that might not be a big deal to some people, but it is to me.

I emailed her a few weeks ago asking her if it was too soon to ask for a hug. She replied saying that if I have a want or need to always ask. I left it alone... till today. I asked her for a hug. Of course, she wanted to talk about it. She asked me why and what it means to me. I told her that we have been doing so well the past couple months, that I feel our relationship is stable. She asked what stable means to me. I replied that I have more trust in her and that I feel comfortable and safe with her. She told me her boundaries with hugs: only casual hugs like at the end of the session. I told her that's all I wanted (and it is all I really wanted). I told her that the hig would mean that everything is okay. She laughed. She asked me if I would finally stop asking her if everything is okay after each session. I still asked anyways The hug felt so natural. It wasn't awkward at all. Her height didn't make a difference either.

I'm so happy. I feel a sense of peace and stability in my life. She's my T. She will leave one day, but for now she's a part of my life. And my gut tells me that she won't abandon me; not like ex-T did. For the first time since ex-T, I feel safe. I have hope. And everything is going to be okay. I'm happy.