Hey everyone.
I really feel bad about what I'm about to say. I feel extremely insecure and codependent in my relationship, to the point where it's making me, and my boyfriend, go a little insane.
I'm hoping you guys can give me advice on what I should do about this stuff. Here are the biggies:
-my boyfriend is my main source of entertainment, and my only true friend
-I have issues with alcohol, and I get extremely angry whenever he drinks. I obsess about it and am immediately in a bad mood when he's drinking around me, regardless of how he's acting or how much he's had to drink.
-I avoid going places with him where I know he'll be drinking because I want to avoid the extreme anger and frustration I feel when I see him drinking
-He has only been "out of line" drinking a handful of times, and in those cases he mostly just yelled at me about things that didn't make much sense. He really doesn't have a drinking problem, but I act as though he does.
-I take it as almost and insult and it is a huge blow when he gets home from work and goes to hang out with his friends.
-whenever he's out with his friends and he's drinking I sit at home fuming about it
-whenever he gets home from those types of nights I give him the silent treatment. I know it is an overreaction but in that moment it's just how I react
-I feel the need to be a total control freak and make him feel guilty about drinking "too much" or "not spending enough time with me"

Please give me some advice...what is wrong with me??
I have many severe anxiety disorders and some mild depression but have never suffered wth this until after a year in our relationship!