Hi,
I am new to this site and just thought maybe this could be a helpful and safe place to seek support. I am very attached to my T (and I know I am not the only one, despite how lonely it feels at times) and really wish she was my Mom. We see each other a lot during the week in addition to our sessions as I am in a program she helps lead, so you could say seeing her so much definitely doesn't help with the attachment. When I first told her about the Mom stuff and how attached I had become, she was so warm and caring. Lately, however, as I seem to be getting more triggered by her (even a change in her tone of voice sends me into a complete spiral about her not caring), she is acting a lot more distant. I am so afraid my attachment and intense feelings are pushing her away, even though she keeps affirming that isn't happening. That's just not the way it seems. When I am triggered, she gets really irritated and says things like how it's not about her or her acceptance of me. She says it shouldn't matter whether she cares or not... I need to be strong on my own. I understand her wanting to promote independence in me, but all of it just feels so cold compared to her original reaction - full of warmth and compassion, affirmation and love. I was wondering if anyone else has had a similar struggle and how they respond when T says things along these lines or changes their approach so much? I just feel so ashamed for wanting her acceptance so bad and her reaction just doesn't help... I only wish it was that easy