i wrote my T a note and put it in a little bag with 1 cigarette. i told him not to read it til the day of the lawsuit mediation (former T stuff). he was going with me to the mediation. i put it on his desk. a few days later i noticed the bag had air in it. i remembered i made it pretty flat w/ no air. i asked T if he read the note and he said no. i told him what i observed w/ the bag and he said OK, i read it because i thought it was a suicide note, and i thought the cigarette was some cruel joke for me to smoke it when i found out.. i thought omg. the note was telling him to please not talk about anything that went on in the mediation to any of the other staff in the residential program we were in and also wrote some abt my feelings about the whole thing. and the cig was for me in case i didnt have any for afterwards. i can see why he thought it was a suicide note, so i wasnt mad.