**TW: mild self harm**

A thread where I was invalidated and my opinion and experience was exposed as untrue or irrelevant has recently been resurrected. Reading the first few posts of it now made me smash my fist in the door post for the first time in a long, long time. I get so angry and feel so worthless. I don't think I ever replied in the thread at the time because I was really rather terribly hurt so I just stayed away from PC. I would kind of like to reply now but I guess it's pointless this much later - besides, I would not want to hurt the other person whom I like and admire, and who was in the right. I should not have posted in the first place so if I did I have only myself to blame for the fallout. Never post, Mastodon - at least not about therapy, or your opinions, thoughts or feelings. At least not if they don't agree with those of the real people.

I just hope T doesn't notice that my hand looks a bit injured today. I won't see him for three weeks after this session and there is no lasting harm done to my hand.