((((esther)))))) keep going... yes, we mess up over and over again.. so does everyone else in the whole world. WE notice it because of the depression...

try not to ruminate from prior years, months days, of what you don't think you have succeeded at... those promises... try to focus just on today.. I "run" on my T's hope for me.. because I don't feel any hope for myself.

Disappointment .... one more dissappointment and I wonder if I can handle it... do you feel this way too? My T insists I need to stop thinking this way... yes, there will be more disappointments but they happen to everyone, and we all work through them inspite of them.... it's the depression that makes us think the "either - or" thinking...

You are in a difficult place... try not to think of too much at once, focus on the things you have to accomplish today...

I think you have changed for the better just since being here! You now are seeing both : past and future and how they compete. You couldn't see that before... BUT again, try to focus not on the past... not on the future. We have no control over those. We can control getting through today. We can get through today. And that will make us successful for today!