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Old Dec 17, 2015, 09:53 AM
tufan tufan is offline
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Maybe I read the internet too much...but I am really convinced from my reading that men want something that I am not. That something seems to be basically Barbie with giant tits, plastic looking skin and anime eyes. I don't feel as optimistic about dating men as I did before my jacked up marriage. With freedom just around the corner, of course I think about getting 'back out there', so to speak, not looking for anything serious of course, but I'm hanging on to a shred of hope that maybe I'm not too geriatric to find a dude to at least share quality time with, eventually? I am very shy and I do not flirt. I don't think I am so terribly ugly but maybe men think I am? I have only had a couple of them approach me in a year's time to tell me they think I am pretty or whatever. I admit that I don't seek men out and I look away any time I catch one looking at me. I guess if I were better looking there would have been more. I know men only care about how we look, so I make sure I don't eat a lot so I stay at 18.3 - 19.0 BMI. I keep my hair neat for the most part unless I am having Dark Days (like now, so today's supermarket trip I will be hiding in a hoodie), I never smell because I enjoy my bathing routine, I make my own facial products that work pretty well and I take great care of my teeth. But it's not enough, is it?

I want to hear at least one real story from a lady in my age range (30-35) about how it is and what you feel these men want. It feels so hostile and like they all want teenagers and I don't want to play anymore reindeer games because I am too done with that. I think I would be sad if men found me too old before I even sprouted grey hair and a true deep wrinkle, just because I'm not 20 anymore. I'd like to believe there is a chance that I will get the kind of love I always wanted in due time, but since I'm a woman I guess my time is running out.
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