Thanks Vonmoxie! I appreciate your reply. I'm trying hard to be confident in my abilities because I just don't think all that much of my looks. But I have learned so much because my soon to be ex husband was essentially a worthless lump. I know how to take care of myself and my house quite efficiently. I can handle minor repairs and even minor plumbing issues! I learned out of necessity from watching youtube videos. I really pride myself on not being the typical 'helpless' female trope. I guess I also have confidence in my intelligence because I can figure out most things fairly easily and quickly...except other people, gender regardless. I'm in my own head so much that I'm not really 'on deck' with other humans. I guess I need to work on that.