Yes, I understand how you feel. I have posts plastered all over this forum since March, about it. I have a deep attachment to my T also, I don't feel like I have the maternal longing from her that you do, but even though she switched things up, and became a bit more distant herself, and really hurt me, I'm still horribly attached. I see her in about an hour, but I don't really talk about these things. After 9 months of feeling so bad because of the change in our "therapeutic relationship," I am finally taking that first step in a different direction. I have a session with a new T next week. A second T, for now.