Blue headphones, there is no such thing as getting better by yourself. We need others to give us feedback to help gauge us where we are at in our progress. If you could get better on your own you could of healed yourself a long time ago. And it didnt happen, for you or any of us. It doesnt work that way. We need others in our lives. So i recommend you be honest with your therapist. I recommend you keep a daily journal and write down all your feelings and your thoughts. Then discuss them with your therapist. They might find a pattern that you do not see that you both can work on to get better. I feel for you, i really do. I did not always have the easiest life growing up, trust me. And i had a cousin die from anorexia. She was a nurse and knew better but did not seek professional help to get better. She died five foot eight at around seventy eight pounds. you don't want to be a statistic do you? then do something about it. every day is a gift to work on getting better. i really wish you well. tc