For me, I wouldn't say that I am addicted to any particular aspect of my condition, but I do miss my more enlightened, clearer, creative, thinking when I don't have it for periods of time, as would anyone I think. I recently accepted taking Risperdal and got a bit worried about all this.

And yes, it's great until it's not. But it's hard for me to know where that line is. One day I'm blah the next I'm yelling to my husband such and such about MY omnipotence etc and so forth, can't calm down, can't make myself believe no, the neighbors aren't watching me.

I'm hoping in the end a low dose of the medication will take the edge off the worst but still keep my creativity in play.