I understand where you are coming from. I have a deep attachment to my T and have had a wish that she could be my mom. In other words I have maternal transference with her. I have felt this way for a long time and have talked to my T about this many times and she has really helped me with these feelings. I have realized in the last week that I am happy and blessed and content with how things are. I have a special relationship with her and she has told me she loves and cares about me. That is enough. It has taken me a LONG time to get to this point.

My best advice to you is to keep talking this over with your T. Your feelings are normal. Keep asking her why she seems to be acting different. She might have other things going on. I hope you get the answers you need/want and this gets better for you and not as painful.