Like everyone here, my mixed episodes are hell on earth. My mood is very low, agitation through the roof, irritable, inpatient, racing thoughts, paranoia, and suicidal ideation. My mind is utterly tormented and I would rip my own skin off if I thought it would make it stop.Without meds I cannot sleep much and cannot sit still. Concentration is very poor as well. When it is really bad I need to be hospitalised to be safe. I am just coming out of one now and I feel a huge weight has been lifted off me. It seems I have overshot 'normal' though and moved right into hypomania. I'm loving the euphoria but would really rather be stable.