I feel very in edge and energetic but sad and usually suicidal too. And my anxiety is always sky high and my mind races. I typically feel like I'm living a blur like things can't be real or why would I feel like this. I sometimes self harm. I have panic attacks often. Noise becomes too much to bear and sometimes my clothes feel like too much on my skin. Sometimes I get paranoia.

I don't wish it in anyone. It's torture.