I have a therapist, but I haven't seen her in three weeks. I won't see her again until next week on the 24th. And really don't have too many friends that I can talk to in person. Sometimes I talk to my coworkers, but I never go in depth because I'm not sure I trust them yet. How do you ask someone to hang out with you? Or ask if you want to exchange cell phone numbers? Why would they want to spend time with me? I have serious trust issues, but something has to give because everyone needs at least one friend they can actually look in the eyes, in person, right?

I'll try think more positively. There just aren't many positives in my life. The good things that happen don't really last. Like there's a negative to counter it every time. Like I did good at work, but it wasn't good enough because they're still cutting back my hours. So when they say, "Good job" I know it doesn't make a difference in the hours they give me. I'm very discouraged at the moment, and am looking for a different job. One that doesn't cause me daily physical pain.