Thank you for all the replies. I'm not sure closure exists as I will still hurt but I guess I just want him to know he hurt me. That I told him my deepest fears and instead of protecting those fears he used them. Then he skipped out and abandoned me more when the going got tough.

I want him to know how damaging and hideous those actions are.

My new T already thanked me for sharing and said it was a sharp reminder of the deep impact therapists can have and to try and always honor what was shared.