I dont know if it helps but there are some free TV type things on the internet.. I`m sure if you google you can find something.They may help get over the immediate issue.

I`m recently diagnosed (two days ago actually) and going to get the meds tomorrow. Yes I am slightly scared about taking them, but I haven`t been as positive as I feel right now in years because I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. However my brain is having a real good go at the moment, almost trying to convince me that they wont work before I start them. I`m not ignoring it, just trying to deal with it, always thinking about the good things I will be able to do when they work.

If the goal is worth it, then the journey no matter how hard, is worth it too. Whats your goal , how would you like your life to be ? What are some of the specifics you "dream of". Thats what I keep thinking to myself. I imagine an ideal day, and when I really think about it realise the things I want are the simple things, and are attainable I take pride in small victories, the bits others take for granted, but I think to myself "thats a step on the journey"