I sorry you've been so much. Family is complicated, but I can't imagine.

You don't need to let people judge you for something you are working on. You are doing your best to deal with your hair-pulling. If people judge you for that, then they are the fools. What you need to do is find some other type of stim. How about a stress ball or a Tangle?

Don't hate yourself for how others see you. Your self worth shouldn't be based on others, but yourself. You are beautiful, no matter how others say. If you were bald because you had cancer and needed chemotherapy, would people judge you for that? Of course not. It's the stigma and ignorance that's causing it.

And don't SI. Distract yourself. Drink tea, have a nap, watch TV. You can do it.

I have OCD. Though I don't pull my hair, worrying someone is going to hurt you every time you walk somewhere or every 10 mins you need to wash your hands. I believe people judge me for my hand-washing. No one sees my intrusive thoughts.

The point is, you are doing a good job fighting it all. The worse type of illness is one no one can see. Keep going. You are doing amazing [emoji3].

Social anxiety disorder, GAD, OCD, and panic attacks

Lexapro, 10 mg