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Originally Posted by BlueCrustacean
I wonder if the attitude towards masturbation may be the culprit. After I posted my last comment, I decided I accomplished a lot that day and that I'd reward myself with masturbation, while I was already feeling good about myself, to feel even better- like drinking to celebrate rather than drinking to drown your feelings. I had a MUCH better experience, although I still had some angry, obsessive thoughts coming back that I was thinking before I started.
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That might be true. I was a loner growing up, and I was slow to hit puberty. I didn't know that masturbation was common, so I felt very bad about it. Even after a psychologist told me that masturbation was common behavior, I continued to see it as an addiction or a necessary evil.
LOL I was thinking about a positive experience I had watching a porno. It was a couple of women in lingerie working on crafts - gluing things and adding glitter. It brought back memories of being in elementary school and making things with Elmer's glue and construction paper. That is how I am now. I watch these pornos and my attention goes to pictures hanging on the wall in the background instead of the pretty women frolicking around in the foreground.
I can't decide how I feel about this low libido.
