I have actually considered what if my T discovers me here. I have told him about the website but not its' name. He would certainly be able to discern who I was from my posts I have no doubt. Today I told him the one thing I was too embarrassed to say to him since I thought of it recently. I told him that I really really wished that on the days I cannot cope at all ... I could have an old shirt of his with his smell on it (not that I even know what his smell is actually like) to cuddle with as a kind of transitional object thingy. Sometimes it amazes me how open and honest I am with him. God bless him for always being so accepting and okay about my needing him so much. He does set boundaries ... no touching and so on... but he just lets me be whatever I am. I have always been phobic almost of needing anyone ever; this therapist has really changed my life by his unconditional acceptance and love. At any rate, he was not comfortable about the shirt thing but is in the process of contemplating what he would be comfortable with my using as a transitional object. Gosh, I just love T soooo much.